A Bond being hard work (Pokemon Fanfiction)part 10Luca lay on a branch trying to see the city lights at the horizon. It was hopeless. He could never return to his master. It was afternoon by now and he remembered Celis Words so clearly. She was right. He was the most useless pokemon. A pokemon who couldn’t serve his master and who wasn’t even accepting his new trainer. Luca swallowed some of the pain, to make himself feel better. Why did he care that much about her words? She was only a girl. She wasn’t even needing him, and she wasn’t even caring about him. He wasn’t able to shift and control Aura like his master could, but he could sense a little bit of the feelings of other people. It was very difficult, but here is was clear. Why did she shout at him like that when he wasn’t even loved by her? She didn’t even care about him and still… Humans were strange creatures to him.Celi was running in her ripped cloths through the forest, calling out for Luca because she felt terribly sorry fo
Feeling worthless and unneccessaryAll the persons I try to talk to get hurt. I always hurt anyone and anything. I truely want everyone to stay away from me. I feel like I ruin the day of everyone. I am funny when I try to, but I seem stupid because they can see nothing else. It's really sad to see how no one really likes to talk to me. But actually I don't wanna talk to them too. Its complicated and its really like I am here for nothing. There is no reason that I exist, than being alone. I always ruin the life of other people when they try to be nice. And all the things pass by, as I see just sad excuses. People say: Yeah sure, when they mean: Get away from me, I don't care about you.But I care about them. It's hard to accept that someone simply does not care about your existance. I may be fun, but when I'm gone, there is no single thought about me in another persons mind. Why should I be here when I just never reach a persons core?